More friggin' swords...

The Three of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in truth or consequences. Denial or control is no longer an option and I am ready to experience a breakthrough. My suffering, fear, or emotional loss is/was valid, incredible and deserves to be acknowledged and expressed in order to heal or transform the sacrifice. I am empowered by recognition and my virtue is choice.

My story as a grain of sand...

Sir at Sand Rock

When the water level rises... it may get to here! Or maybe this is where the water level was when Sir sunk the Ship back in circa???

One gets the feeling that the hard lines of time are a subconscious reminder of where we have been before. The attraction of energy - like attract like- seems to be ever so evident when one starts joing the dots and seeing the picture emerge.

My journey "as a grain of sand" has been so exciting that I can burst with excitement in the wanting to tell all the other grains of sand, so they can know of my experiences. Sometimes I feel so small and insignificant, but I know, that each grain of sand is imporatant, as without the grains of sand, there would be no beach. And with my metaphor, I liken the beach to God / mass consciousness.

Water water water - in a coke bottle

When I say that I have the Universe behind me, I am not joking. Take a closer look at the shape of the clouds in the sky above me. J.C. (The photographer did not see it or take it on purpose in that respect, so it is pure synchronicity. And I am Amanzi1 standing on what I affectionaly dubbed Birkenhead Rock with my water bottle in hand. Coca-Cola - this deserves a fortune in advertising for you! And I hereby lay claim to all copyright. The head of the Berkeyly Psychic Institute in California did not tell my husband and I that we have shared many lifetimes together for nothing. Neither did their recollection of him having a past life as a captain of a ship that had sunk. The one american psychic man really took a dislike to him.

Revenge of the Blondes...

Come hell or high water! I have my blue plastic Invader, my life jacket and my helmet. And since those have dematerialised, I shall rely on my metaphorical ones!

In tune with my crystal - a High Priestess clear quartz

The High Priestess card affirms my alter ego today is the Translator, whose superpower is her expertise and access to the trusted 'word on the street.' My reputation or method precedes me. My secret formula: I never let them see me sweat! Having mastered the blueprints, I now have the props to read between the lines and get my foot in the door. I sit in as instructor at the floodgates between mystery and answers. I define the house rules, and pass on the message -- or keep it private -- by referring to the 'handbook,' a voice of experience. I reveal my pearls of wisdom with an enticing restraint that keeps them coming back for more. So get with the program, look 'under the table' or take with a grain. Insult, sanction or throw the book at it on a technicality, or be dependent on same old story.

Denial... Denial... Denial... oh fuck - now what?

The Nine of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in realization. I am not my mistakes. I can't do this alone or pretend any more. The illusion of comfort in denial or sacrifice is no longer mine. There is no shame in my suffering -- no healing in silent self-torment. It is here at the surreal crossroads of the "soul search" where dawning truth meets the anguish of overwhelming resistance in mind over matter that I can finally wake up, change my mind, let go of what no longer works or own my losses or choices. I am empowered by intense acknowledgment or epiphany and my virtue is gratitude or relief in recognition.

God help me!!! (please)

Thank You.

Love Tarot for today

The Two of Swords card suggests that not only is love blind, but once bitten, twice shy. Take precautions and protect your interests. Be aware that keeping score, emotional detachment, hiding your feelings or keeping secrets may not bring understanding -- it might only put you on the defensive or create a romantic impasse. If you are turning a blind eye to what is going on around you in an effort to avoid emotional involvement, the resulting tension might impede your ability to move forward in your love life or relationship. Keep conduct or communications aboveboard to establish respect and boundaries.

The Blog is Better than the Bullet...

The Ace of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in cause and effect. With great power comes great responsibility. Do the right thing or state the obvious and the 'pen will be mightier than the Sword.' The truth will set me free. It's the principle of the thing. Get it in writing. I am empowered by intention and my virtue is my promise, commitment or vow.

I used to say: "Ban the Bullet or Bite the Bullet!" It appears that shall neither work in the short term or the long term. Self discipline is the optimum form of dancing with life. Or is it only ducking and diving these days? Have people not learned yet from history that prohibition of any kind leads to underground buisinesses of a way more serious nature?

Males, regardless of which species they may be, rutt and strutt their stuff and compete to the death at times for the attention of the opposite sex, unless of course they are hermaphrodites - and then there are all the other "labels". (Something I am not that fond of but understand their purpose - I just wish people wouldn't get so hung up on them... or should I say stuck up on?) Anyway, interesting labels such as antisexualism celibacy deep ecology sexual aversion disorder and spiritual_marriage caught my eye along the way - funny how life works. Yeah I know - laughter IS the best medicine!

Did I ever mention that my Senior High School year had this novel as our set-work book? Life is full of connections - you don't even have to look for the signs, they are just simply everywhere. When I am in a real place of being then I really do live in SynchroniCity... three clicks, one line of interest and hey presto, result! Unnecessary, sure, but validation is never far from happiness, well, that's just what comes to mind. My purpose, of course, is to learn how to be happy and enjoy life. God knows I've been trying for 40 years... I ask myself, what are the greatest lessons I have learned in these 40 years? Well, a: not to cross the line - even if I do really really want to get to the other side in a hurry; b: Do unto myself as I would have done unto others; c: drink pure, clean water - just as nature intended it to be. (That's enough for now.)

The Junior Anti-Sex League in George Orwell's dystopian novel Nineteen Eighty-Four was a group of young adult Party members devoted to banning all sexual intercourse, and replacing its procreative functions with the use of artificial insemination (children would be raised in public institutions, rather than in individual families). Though the League was founded and countenanced by the all-powerful totalitarian Party, the Party leadership did not allow it to succeed in its goals. However, the existence of the League served as an important public reminder of the Party's disapproval of all attachments and activities which could diminish exclusive loyalty to the Party, and that everything other than "normal intercourse between man and wife, for the sole purpose of begetting children, and without physical pleasure on the part of the woman" was forbidden sexcrime which could be punished by death.

My own novel, Rivers of Love, Life & Something Else, has a chapter entitled Beauty & Perfection. This is the bare bones of it... With all my love, Sweat Pea

p.s as I sign off - much later than I started at around 4am SA time, this is now:

The Wheel card affirms that my alter ego is an Observer Participant, whose superpower, uncertain opportunity, acts as huckster in a carnival ride of free will, motive and time by assuming roles of game host and player linked by chains of events, or to hedge bets against a Greater Fool. Anything goes. Everything counts. Fate, Luck or a Cosmic Santa of Fortune assigned by relative to preordained or random turns are subject to short-sighted cheats or social brands of justice. But it's my entitlement, input, fear, or anticipation along the chain that spins labels into gold or coal! Today is a chance to fix, stir or dip into the Quantum Soup, boiling six degrees of separation from connecting to enough, waiting for the Karmic bill or dessert to close the meal in hindsight. But to self-correct by priority I put it on my list, pay my dues by choice and can see it coming to pass full circle.